THE DISILLUSIONED DREAMER – ♥ I already took the IELTS twice… I admit I almost gave up … [on] my writing skills 💠

Updated 2025

6–9 minutes

|| The Writing Didn’t Fail Me ||

Hello Kim,

As you may have known me, I’m K,  from Philippines….I have been following your blog for quite some time now. … I’d like to let you know a bit of myself. I’m a BSN, and currently a registered nurse. I worked in a tertiary hospital here for only 14 months. Since then,  I stopped practicing my profession because I’m actually looking for a greener pasture. Otherwise, I wouldn’t flourish knowing that wages here are very, very low and can’t compensate for your wants, needs, and assistance to your very own loved ones. Based on this, maybe you will have an idea that I’m a man with big dreams, and eagerly relentless on pursuing them. =)

I believe in the saying that, “success starts with IELTS.” However unfortunately, I already took the IELTS twice (April and July this year), but never found the luck especially in my Writing. Taking the exam twice in a row, I always got 6.0 bandscore in my Writing while the rest of the components L, R and S were okay. My writing sucks, isn’t it? I usually practiced my writing part before like 2x a week. But I admit I almost gave up knowing that I’ve had the same mistakes and no matter how hard I tried to improve my writing skills, I fairly didn’t have the chance of getting 7 especially during my practices. In my mind I believe that writing skill takes a talent, which I obviously don’t have. I’d like to think that I didn’t get a score of 7 because of the technicality of the IELTS writing topics and the topics themselves are difficult to be explained explicitly, to the point that I ran out of ideas, or no ideas to be input at all 😦

However, sooner, I will be reviewing and sitting for the CELBAN may be early next year if everything goes well. Right now, I have this ambivalent feeling, again. To be honest, I really don’t have any ideas right now what CELBAN is all about except its meaning, Canadian English Language Benchmark Assessment for Nurses. I have with me again this feeling of fear, completely mixed emotions because I don’t know how difficult the CELBAN exam is, or if I can make it with just one take. Although a lot of IENs from the agency where I have applied as student visa for Canada took and passed the exam with just one sit, still I’ve lessened down my expectations to make it….How do I improve IELTS or CELBAN writing? Ielts writing topics are getting more difficult than the ones established few years ago.

How is my above writing Ms Kim?…

Hope to hear from you soon. Thanks a lot!

K


Dear K,

I read your letter slowly, more than once. Not because I didn’t understand it.. but because I wanted to. Not just with my eyes, but with my whole heart.

And this is what I heard:
You are a man with big dreams.
And you are not lost.
You are in the middle of becoming.

🜄 Return to Self

There is a quiet courage in the way you reveal yourself: without masks, without defense.

When someone says, “My writing sucks, doesn’t it?” I hear a voice aching not for correction, but for connection.
So let me begin with this: You are not your grammar.
You are not your bandscore.
You are not the 6.0 that came after all your effort.

You are a human being. Longing to belong. Longing to make good on the promise within you.
And you are already in motion toward that promise… even when you doubt it.

🜁 Fog to Clarity

Let’s clear a few things together, shall we?
Writing is not about talent. Writing is about process.

What you practiced – two times a week – was not in vain. But it lacked one crucial thing: strategic, personalized feedback.
Not every effort creates improvement. Only effort that is refined, reflected, and revised will change your results.

This is the CELBANPrep Method:

  • Name your weaknesses. (Not as shame… but as awareness.)
  • Work with a guide who shows you how to turn weakness into strength: one step at a time.
  • Integrate feedback. Not all at once, but slowly: two or three pieces at a time, so your nervous system doesn’t shut down.
  • Revise. Then revise again. Not because you failed. But because mastery is shaped in layers.

This is not magic. This is not marketing. This is how adults learn.

Writing well – on the CELBAN, the IELTS, or in a hospital chart – is not about more words. It’s about fewer mistakes, clearer meaning, stronger presence. And that is something that can be taught.

🜃 Rooted in Enoughness

You asked: Is writing twice a week enough?
And the answer is: it depends.

Are you writing within time limits?
Are you reviewing your own patterns of error?
Are you being guided, not only in grammar, but in mindset?

The truth is: your nervous system cannot carry everything at once.
Writing well is not only about skill; it’s about regulation.
That’s why we recommend:

  • 30 minutes a day,
  • One focus at a time,
  • With breath, with gentleness, with rhythm.

K, you are not behind.
But you are invited… to walk differently now.
Not with intensity, but with intention.
Not with panic, but with presence.

Let your preparation become your practice.
Let your practice become your prayer.
Let your prayer become your pathway.

🜂 Rekindling the Inner Fire

I see the spark in you.

You said it yourself:

“I’m a man with big dreams, and eagerly relentless on pursuing them.”

That relentlessness isn’t just ambition. It’s sacred.
You want more not only for yourself, but for those you love.
You seek not just success… but significance.

Let that be your fire.

But let’s learn to tend the fire, not burn out in its heat.
We do that by choosing preparation over panic.
Strategy over shame.
Steady devotion over sporadic struggle.

You have already begun to change what isn’t working.
That is the shift. That is the becoming.
You are already on the path.

🜀 Standing at Zenith

The CELBAN is different.
Not because it’s easier.
But because it mirrors who you are.. not in abstract topics, but in real-life communication.

The writing tasks are medical. The context is familiar. The skills are transferable.
But make no mistake: the expectations are high.
And success comes not from chance, but from practice that is precise, patient, and embodied.

Here is your next step:

  1. Begin with the Grammar Series. Not to memorize rules: but to unlearn mistakes and relearn clarity.
  2. Move into CELBANPrep Writing Level One. This is where you learn to self-correct: the single greatest skill in language exams.
  3. Write. Reflect. Revise. Repeat. With a tutor or mentor who sees your potential and your pattern.

K, the fire in you is real. But so is the fog.
Let’s walk through both. One breath at a time.
You are not alone. And you are not failing.
You are simply in the spiral.

And you’re not just preparing for a test.
You’re preparing for a life.

In reverence,
~ Kim



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Let their stories inspire yours! Return to your Self: transforming fog into clarity, becoming rooted in enoughness, and rekindling the fire within, so that you stand centred at your zenith: with hope, confidence, and grace.

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