My Farewell

Dear Friends,

Since Boxing Day, I have been spending almost all of my time writing. If I am not writing on the computer, I have been writing in my journal. In that time I have completed 25 chapters for a new book. Yes, 25 chapters in  10 days. I actually wrote four in one day!

In that time I have also completed two 200 page journal, and am halfway done another. This following two weeks of similar activity. So in all I have completed four journals in four weeks.

What have I been exploring? What have I been writing about?

I have been asking myself over and over, from every direction possible, for the past two months: what do I want to do with my life?

When I started CELBANPrep there were three personal reasons why I created an on-line business:

  1. I wanted to be able to live and work in a remote location surrounded by nature and beauty.
  2. I wanted to travel and explore the world, giving my daughter first hand experience.
  3. I needed to have work that was flexible, considering my daughter’s health needs and my concern for her well being.

Everything changed in November, 2014, when she went home to be with her Father in Heaven.

Crushed by the weight of her loss I was no longer able to do what I had been doing: lighting the hearts and spirits of Internationally Educated Nurses coping with the reality of living in Canada, dealing with underemployment, and managing a life from the perspective of shattered dreams.

That is right. CELBANPrep wasn’t about passing the CELBAN exam, it was about so much more.

And during my seven years, I met so many amazing people who allowed me to walk with them on their individual journeys. Several I was able to draw closer to me, training them up as Writing Coaches, and Speaking Mentors.

It has been a joy and a glory to be part of your lives!

But the loss of my daughter impacted me deeply. I was no longer in a place in my life where I could lift other people up, out of the darkness. I was no longer in a place in my life where I could read the e-mails of the disheartened and disillusioned; replying to them with love, compassion and hope. I was no longer in a place in my life where I had compassion for people who told me that they could not afford the services I was providing.

I actually got a job as a cashier at a grocery store working for minimum wage.

But I went to that job every day, filled with love and gratitude in my heart, for all the nurses I had met that taught me how to have self-love, self-acceptance and dignity in the face of working in a survival position that had nothing to do with my skills talents or education.

I went to work every day, smiling as I looked out over the ocean, grateful to all the nurses I had met who filled me with courage, from their examples of moving to Canada, so that I could move to BC to live by the ocean which had such healing effects on my soul.

So, without my daughter’s needs to motivate me, and without my heart and spirit to guide me, for the past year I have been exploring the question: what do I want to do with my life.

It has been a difficult question, for you see, I have done everything I have ever wanted to do. I completed two degrees. I worked for Parks Canada, the World Wild Life Fund and with an endangered species as an ecologist. I got to take a boat to work every day, and to fly to work in a helicopter every day for a week. I flew a plane. I have written and published books. I have motivated people. I have lifted them out of despair and given them hope. I have made a difference in the world.

I once had this dream about being in the hospital. My attending nurse found out who I was. Quietly she slipped out of the room. Soon one nurse came to join me, then another, and another until the entire room was filled. My perspective shifted as I saw what was happening from the ceiling as nurses came from all over the hospital to thank me. I was completely overwhelmed as I am now in writing this, with tears in my eyes.

My life is a testimony that one person really can make a difference!

I always said that my motivation for CELBANPrep was that we need you. We need you to take care of our family, our friends, our loved ones.

But now my time with CELBANPrep is over. I have not been able to say so, for the past year, because I did not know what I wanted to do with my life. But my experiences since my daughter’s death are guiding me into another direction, where I can assist in God’s plan in a very different way. I will still be providing hope, light and love, but to a wider yet different audience. I will still be sustaining others in fulfilling their dreams, but more than Internationally Educated Nurses.

My role in God’s plan is expanding.

So those of you who have known me, or come to know me through my writing, and want to walk along with me on my journey: you are so very welcome.

For those of you who are wanting to be a registered nurse in Canada, I am sorry I will not be able to provide you the one-on-one assistance I did in the past. But I know that God will be there, and He will guide you to qualified people to help you along the way.

In time, when I am ready, willing and able, I will be creating more resources to assist those individuals. But for now, it is time for me to say farewell.

Thank you to all My Nurses for providing the inspiration and courage to do things in my life that I never would have done if it weren’t for creating CELBANPrep and meeting you!

May Angels continue to guide you and protect you, clearing your path, vanquishing your fears and self-doubts, and filling you with love.

In Spirit,

Kim

P.S. To My Nurses, if you have updates to share, that I can post on Dear Kim to inspire others, please send an e-mail.

Please Vote: CELBANPrep 2017

Dear Friend,

It is the nineteenth of May, two thousand and seventeen,  two and a half years since the passing of my daughter. (Please see the Tag ~ Kim: Are you Okay? These messages from real IENs who knew that I was real, trusted me, and felt for me.)

At first I tried to maintain CELBANPrep, through my wonderful Writing Coach and Speaking Mentors, ( ❤ to you Dia, Genevieve and Deborah) but over time I simply could not maintain it. Although I had created an amazing e-portal, that looked huge from the outside: I was the one doing all the technical stuff, creating the graphics and videos and e-mails and all. So, when I could not do it any more, there was no one else to replace me.

I wrote about it on the Dear Kim Blog, My Farewell, but had not been able to do so until January of this year.

Things slipped out of my hands and all of a sudden everything I had created over seven years was gone. The server was wiped clean. All that was left was my blog an what is on Amazon. Everything else was gone. And I didn’t have the time, energy or will to recreate it all. (I found out on New Years Day when I was going to send everyone free copies of resources.)

There were always some people complaining about this or that, but no one knew how much time I put into everything, how long it took to create what I did, and how little I got paid. I used to joke with people about how much they would make once they got registered as nurses, that it would be more than me. It wasn’t a joke. It was true. CELBANPrep really was a labour of love.

And my daughter knew it too. She loved travelling with me when we went to different cities for CELBANPrep Speaking Workshops. She would be my assistant, and for one of the videos she was a patient.

I quoted something she had texted me in the blog entitled Remember UR Passion.

She is a beautiful girl with a beautiful heart and soul and is so very missed.

My healing journey has been long and slow. I am only now able to clean up the sites and blog. It is a very long process for one person to do. I also have hundreds of hours of videos to edit, and all of the courses to reformat so that they are available on Amazon and Youtube.

It will take time. But you can help. If you go to www.iepc.ca you will see links to the various youtube channels I created before everything happened. Please vote for which one you want me to develop first, by subscribing to the ones you are interested in. I simply don’t know how to decide where to focus my limited time and energy. Taking the time to vote will help me to make that decision.

I plan on phasing things in with one Grand Opening in September 2017 and the other January 2017.

Again, I am sorry that what happened in my life has had impact in yours. I ask for your forgiveness, and for those of you who have a faith: your continued prayers.

Simply,
Kim

Remember to cast your vote.  Go to www.iepc.ca.  Subscribing to the ones you want developed first.

Apologies: Technical Difficulties

As many of you may know, CELBANPrep has been completely automated. And so the course work had been made available instantaneously. If just came to my attention that there have been some technical difficulties for some time. I apologize. I am working to have things restored.

Kim

♥ I didn’t take any English Exam because I’m too afraid I’m might get failed.

Hi Kim!!
It’s nice knowing some people having concern in building up dreams and success of one’s life. Though we don’t know each other physically but still the inner connection is there. so blessed to have you as one of my angel in reaching those dreams. All is well Kim, still overwhelmed with the recent blessings I got from Him and that’s passing the RPN exam, God works really in a very mysterious way.He knows my passion ever since, helping the needy that needs medical attention. However Kim, still can’t do registration because I still have outstanding requirements to comply on which are the language proficiency in English and having Permanent residency.i came to Canada under live in caregiver program and working already for 20 months,patiently waiting for another four more months so I can apply already my open permit along with the permanent residency. Thank you Lord!🙏. By the way Kim, still I didn’t take any English Exam because I’m too afraid I’m might get failed. I know in myself that it’s one of my Waterloo,but,deeply in my heart it’s not yet too late for everything. I’m willing and very much interested to learn whatever it takes along the way. I’m trying to browse every site as much as I can that will surely help me and will not cost me at all and this is it,I found you!!😇. thank you in advance Kim for spending time with me. May God bless you abundantly!–S

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♥ I am heartbroken with my [failed] ielts results three times

HI Kim,i am IEN from india ,i have not started preparing yet I need your support please guide from the initial step. you know I am heartbroken with my ielts results three time after coming to Canada.I know with your guidance and encouragement I will able to study hard.waiting eagerly for your response. A.

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i read… that u can do both LPN and RN…I really need your advice.

Hi kim,
I am a registered nurse in the Philippines with a 4 years experience but its a long time ago (2010). I am currently in a live in caregiver program. I just registered in NNAS for my assessment for LPN but i read on some forums and even here that u can do both LPN and RN assessment at the same time but with additional payment. I was just wondering if its advisable to do it if i want to pursue LPN first then maybe eventually pursue my RN career. I really need your advice. Thanks for your time.

J

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2G CELBAN or IELTS: writing reviewer

Hi,

I want to purchase CELBAN Writing Task Specially Writing Task 1 can you send me the link form your website so that I can proceed.
Thanks, A

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