THE DISILLUSIONED DREAMER – 🜂 I took celban twice and I didn’t get expected score 💠

Updated 2025

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|| This Time, I Am Coming Back With Fire ||

Hello Kim,

I would like to prepare for celban with you. I would like to let you know that I took celban twice and I didn’t get expected score. Very first time I was with you.

First result: L-8, R-9, W-7, S-7

Second result: L-10, R-10, W-6, S-6

Naturally, I won’t go for my third trial without your permission.  Please enroll me with you. Dosen’t matter, I will work for some extra hours. But I would pay you happily. And, I am sure that with your valuable guidence, I will definately pass this test. I am ready to work hard and also will improve my mistakes according to your guidence.

Thank you very much for your time and consideration,

Regards,

A


🜄 Return to Self

Dear A,

Welcome home.
There is a steadiness in your words that reaches beyond effort; it speaks of devotion, to your dream, to your future, to your becoming. I felt your fire the moment I read your message. But I also felt your tenderness… the ache of trying again, of not giving up, of trusting yourself enough to return.

Even the act of reaching out again is a reclaiming.

You’ve seen both progress and setback. You’ve walked through disappointment and chosen, still, to believe. That alone tells me: your heart has not given up, even when it could have. That is strength.

🜁 Fog to Clarity

You’ve already begun to piece together a truth many never name:
That scoring well in one area but not another isn’t failure; it’s feedback. Your mind is learning how to carry all the skills at once, and that takes more than intelligence. It takes integration.

There’s wisdom in your self-observation, and courage in your willingness to improve.

And yes, when you’re truly ready to receive the method as it’s designed, when you trust the process and the pacing, something begins to shift. Not just in grammar or strategy but in confidence. In clarity. In calm.

The mind can feel foggy after a second try. But your clarity is already returning.

🜃 Rooted in Enoughness

You don’t need to push harder; you need to root deeper.

The reason the CELBANPrep method begins with Writing Level One is because we begin with you. With your life. Your breath. Your voice. Not with pressure: but with presence. The body must feel safe before it can perform.

When we skip that and aim too quickly for perfection, the nervous system tightens, and learning becomes survival.

I’ve seen too many exhausted caregivers, shift workers, and parents try to study through burnout. It never works for long. But you… you are asking for support differently this time. With reverence. With readiness. With rootedness.

That is enoughness.

🜂 Rekindling the Inner Fire

The truth is, I’ve always known you could pass.
The spirit in your first message has never left.
What I see now is the fire returning: with intention, not panic.
With trust, not just effort.

This is not about hustling harder. This is about rekindling… the kind of fire that illuminates, not burns.

You are not the same person you were at the beginning.
You are coming back: not from scratch, but from soul.
And that fire will carry you forward, not just to passing… but to peace.

🜀 Standing at Zenith · Convergence

You are standing at the edge of coherence:
Where your effort meets your evolution.
Where your past attempts become compost for your next bloom.

This is your third attempt… but it is not just another try.
It is a return with wisdom. With willingness. With wholeness.

Let’s walk this spiral again but this time, with your full self present.
Mind clear. Heart open. Body grounded. Spirit alight.

When that day comes – and it will – I know you’ll become a voice for others still in the fog, reminding them to trust, to rest, and to rise again.

With quiet faith in your becoming,
Kim



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Let their stories inspire yours! Return to your Self: transforming fog into clarity, becoming rooted in enoughness, and rekindling the fire within, so that you stand centred at your zenith: with hope, confidence, and grace.

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