☼ I am here for you, but what I really want to know is: are you here for yourself?

DEAR KIM,

Hello again! Its been months since i last communicated with you and i hope you still remember me. I also had my Celban Course Bundle subscription last year which had expired early this year. First of all, i want to  say thank you for all the support you have given me despite the fact that i was not able to become an active student that time. My first experience to take the CELBAN early this year still went smooth despite  my tremendous lack of self confidence and time ( as i described to you my condition before). Kim i got 8 for speaking, 10 for listening, 9 for reading…..BUT a very huge BUT only 6 for writing. The result was fine at first because i tried to console my self that i could just try LPN and not go for RN anymore for when i got my result that was the time that CLPN in our province were accepting applicants with some differences in the English assessment results. After 6 months CLPN approved me for CCA  but they still want me to update my English result. That was the time that my heart shattered because first, i tried to settle for less than what i dream to become; second was  that  the next available spot for CELBAN is March 2014 ; third, i din’t know anymore how to approach the writing  and lastly, i will have to be retested again for listening. Its just recently that i managed to forgive myself and forego of the wrong decisions that i made.  From this moment , my experience made me more matured in approaching my goal. I had learned another life lesson  and now i need  to apply it. Kim, with humility, please recommend to me any subscription for the writing and listening with discounts if possible or anything that you think would be able to help me. Thank you very much for reading my letter. S


conceptDear S,
Thanks for the email and the update.
Congratulations on your scores in reading, listening and speaking. This is very impressive. As for writing,  as I recall, you were not able to complete too many assignments. Although you had a subscription to writing for seven months, you only had four assignments. That is why you only got a 6 in writing. Had you completed more assignments and reached Level Two, then you would have passed everything on the exam. It is too bad that you decided to accept less than you deserve, simply because you did not manage your time well enough to make time to prepare for the writing. Those people who pass the exam in all areas work hard, know of their value and worth, and make time to do what they need to do to get things done. Are you finally at that point? If you are then it has not been a waste of a year, because you have learned an important lesson that will carry you through the rest of the process. But, please do not be over confident about your scores in the other areas. I have known people who focus on one area, who end up getting a lesser score in an area they once excelled in. So your scores in reading, listening and speaking are neither safe nor guaranteed.  Meaning, focusing only on your writing can also be a detrimental decision. Ensure you focus on all four skills, for the next time you write the exam, and you will have much greater success.

I am glad, S, that you recognize the work that I have done in creating CELBANPrep! I am glad you acknowledge that your subscriptions helped you to prepare for the exam the first time. And I am glad that you acknowledge that it can help you this time around. Most of all I am glad that you have discovered something about yourself. Hopefully this is the ingredient you were missing last year, when we first met.

As you know, the writing coaches work as  hard as you do. If you work hard, so will they. If you do not submit assignments or integrate feedback received, then you really are missing out on an opportunity.  In other words, unless you are committed to your self and to becoming a nurse there is no real point in subscribing to CELBANPrep, no matter what price you pay.

So the question remains: how committed are you, really, to being a nurse here in Canada? Because if you are not committed, I assure you there are many others that are; and it is they that will be tending to you and your family and your friends when you go to the doctor or to the hospital.

Your life is a manifestation of the decisions you make. If you don’t like where you are today, make new decisions so that you end up where you want to be. You took one step by contacting me, subscribing to CELBANPrep could be the next step, but your subscription is worthless without effort, time, practice, and consistency.

Ambition, drive and determination are not characteristics that can be purchased; they come from within. They reside within all of us, but only some of us learn how to tap into this expansive source of energy and motivation. And that is what makes the difference between those IENs who become nurses in Canada and those that do not.

You know the value of CELBANPrep, but still you want a coupon. You are unwilling to pay full price. Why is that? Is it because you and your career are simply not important enough to you? Something to think about, because,there is an interesting correlation between those who pay full price and those who are committed to their careers.

CELBANPrep has increased in popularity, so the number of sales I have and the number of spaces available for each sale are decreased. A new sale will be happening , but depending on interest, I can not tell you when the next sale will be. The sad reality is, only those who act succeed.

I am here for you, but what I really want to know is are you here for yourself?
Kim

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I appreciate every word of your response. I had to read it three times for me to fully absorb your message. Kim i would not say anything more now, simply because i learned that its not what i said, but what i do. Thank you very much for showing me the reality of what my actions are leading me and please don’t stop because its what i needed. Once more, thank you for your presence.
S

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Dear S,

It is with deep humility that I read your response.  I was pretty bold in my letter with you, and uncertain about how you would take it. I appreciate that you read it several times, to absorb what I was expressing and communicate, because it was with deep caring and concern… but I was n0t sure if that came through.
When I was pregnant I had a midwife. She was a wonderful woman, very gentle and kind. And so as I was in labour I was quite calm and relaxed. But at one point in time I screamed, as I had seen happen in movies. Immediately the pain intensified. I had lost my center. “I can’t so this!” I yelled. With calm firmness the midwife said to me, “Get it together, Kim. You can and you will do this!” It was like a slap across my face. But I knew she was right. The words stung, but they sobered me. I regained my center. I regained my composure, and I relaxed into the process trusting my body once again.
We only get once chance at life. What we live is what we create, from our actions. And I was amazed to see you act so quickly and with immediacy. It told me that you are very serious about this, about being a nurse in Canada, and are finally ready to take control of your future by making solid decisions.
I appreciate, and am touched deeply and to tears by your words, ” Thank you very much for showing me the reality of what my actions are leading me and please don’t stop because its what i needed.”
 I am touched and moved by your humility to be able to admit that this is what you needed, and your request for me to continue to walk with you down this path. You are a courageous and amazing woman to accept my words; others would be enraged and cut me off with only bad things to say. But here you are motivated and grateful. That speaks a great deal to your character. I am glad that I took the time to write this letter, from the very core of my being, if it means that you found yourself in the process.
What a beautiful phrase, “thank you for your presence.” It is because of this expression that I will end with a special signature that I use with friends and loved ones:
In Spirit,
Kim

3 responses to “☼ I am here for you, but what I really want to know is: are you here for yourself?

  1. Pingback: Ms Kim…. you are an angel to an IEN like me | Dear Kim

  2. Dear S

    Hi. I just had to respond to the above. I honestly read through it twice. I pondered for a while and thought to myself….

    Kim’s purpose in life is, and will always be to make a difference, and that in it self far outweighs the sales that she has on Celban prep. By now I am so convinced about it, as I have been a former student of Kim myself. Dear S always remember that nothing comes easy to us in life, furthermore hard work is the key to getting what you want in life. Every penny that you invest in Celban prep, will be so very worth it in the end. Nonetheless the commitment can only come from you alone. Kim helps her students realize their hidden potential. She will help you grow and guide you in improving your shortcomings in aspect of Celban prep..

    The dream begins with a teacher who believes in you, who tugs and pushes you, and leads you to the next plateau, sometimes poking you with a sharp stick called “truth.”
    Dan Rather

    Everyday is a learning curve, that will only make you stronger and wiser.Taking Kim’s words of wisdom, will take you a step closer to achieving your goals. Bless you and don’t ever give up!

    Warm Wishes
    R

    • R,
      Once again your words touch me so very deeply, R. I am so overjoyed by the progress you have made this past year, and how you have finally achieved your dreams and your goals of being a nurse here in Canada after so many trials, struggles, and difficulties. You are a Phoenix rising from the ashes!

      Thank you for commenting, and your encouraging words. I never thought of myself as “poking people with a sharp stick called ‘truth”. So I learned something, it is when I know that the truth is going to be sharp and cutting that I have the most hesitation. Yet there is a hope that in doing so growth, light and illumination can grow.

      Now that you have manifested this one thing, I hope and pray that other pieces will fall into place so that your puzzle of life, joy and happiness is complete!

      In Spirit,
      Kim

      Dear Kim and “R”,

      A warm hello to both of you! Once more, thank you for all the words that you wrote. I had always believed that when a person reacts in any way, it means she or he cares. Thanks to both of you for caring for me. I am absorbing as well as contemplating all the thoughts you are communicating to me and i really want to “concretely’ act in response to it. It may take a little more time for me to be able to finally tell both of you that all your motivations reaped a positive result in regards to my goal but, in terms of how my spirit was set, you already did!
      “R” i appreciate you for taking the time to elaborate and support our teacher Kim’s intention on her first letter and even more for all the selfless encouragements enclosed with your own letter. One day, i will pay forward what you did to me and also inspire others. By the way, congratulations for all your achievements.
      Kim and ‘R”, I printed out all your letters and pasted in my personal journal for me to read again in times of discouragements and distractions. Other than that, i would also want to be reminded that i have met two special people who selflessly lighted the way in order for me to bravely and consistently travel my journey.
      S

      Dear S,
      How are things going?
      I have kept this message in my inbox and smile each time I see it there. There is nothing more wonderful then reading such a message!

      I posted our communications on Dear Kim and have received several e-mails form people telling me that they were both touched and inspired. While you have gone through some difficult things, you are lifting up others in similar situations. Now that is courage!

      I love your message, that it will take time to see the rewards, you being a nurse in Canada, but that you already see the growth in spirit. Taking care of our spirits is so important, for that is the true source of motivation! I am so proud of you for being able to achieve such greatness! I was going to ask you how you are going to keep that fire burning bright, but you have already determined a way! It touches me deeply that you are including it in your journal. One day, many years from now, one of your descendants will be reading your journal. Tears will flow knowing that grandma/auntie felt discouraged but determined to act, he/she will be inspired to do the very same. And this will be your legacy to future generations all because decided to act and printed it out and put it in your journal!

      Can you see it? So can I!

      R really is selfless and encouraging. I love reading her writing! And I love even more that you will “pay it forward”.

      My life has been so blessed by knowing both of you!
      Sincerely,
      Kim

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